While on a break from school, college students tend to find themselves without a productive outlet for their overactive brains. We get so used to a constant thrawting at our over indulged minds that during a break we find we have loads of brain power... with nothing academic to think about. No differential equations, no GDP, no activity based costing practices to study and mull over. Zip academia to worry about. This is where I am tonight.

I find myself reflecting on my minute life and I realize the beauty in a friendship. With all the hub-bub of everyday college life I couldn't clearly see what was in front of me. I find that when I have a free moment to think... my thoughts were accustomed to wandering to the subject of boys and well... i guess they are men now... and I think "Man i can't wait till i find the one" or "that one is nice to look/drool at".

But in truth what I really need are friends. Beautiful people with whom I can share an amazing movie, based on an excellent book that we have both read. No pressure involved while we are there about "to hand hold, or not to hand hold". Its just a quality movie with quality company.

I should be thanking my lucky stars that I have someone to share it with. Someone who understands me, knows my countless quirks... at yet still (here's the kicker) chooses to live with me. Now that is love.

I don't need to be caught up in this boy-crazy mania that has swept my age group. I need to be the care-free, crazy, bad decision making young adult that I am meant to be. I need to stop looking and worrying about the next phase of my life, when an amazing one is happening to me right now.

I have a great family, great friends, and I'm beginning to repair what was once a great relationship with God. And you know what I get from all this introspective hodge podge? Peace in knowing that I am complete as I am.

Ever great rant must be concluded with a thank you. So thank you Christmas break, thank you movie/life partner, and thank you wireless for actually working tonight.

There is something that i just have to get off my chest.

i love math.

 i mean really... i think stats is the most exciting topic there is. It's interesting and relevent, and stats are used in newpaper articles and on TV all the time. they can be astounding or shocking. like how one in three women will be sexually assulted. that's scary, but at least the stat is there to let women know that they need to look out for themselves. (a prime example of stats helping the common female good.) or take boys for example, with their crazy obcession with spending hours memorizing sports stats. (another prime example of stats helping the female good)

i don't know, with my crazy inability to commit whole heartedly to anything, i feel like i might finally have found something that i can be sure of. cause who can be too worried about being wrong when all the answers are between 0 and 1?

Anna is making me do this. i love her, so i have to keep her happy.

Have you ever?

( ) smoked a cigarette
( ) smoked a cigar.
( ) smoked a joint
( ) crashed a friend's car
( ) stolen a car
( ) been in love
( ) been dumped
( ) shoplifted
( ) been fired
( ) been in a fist fight
( ) snuck out of my parent's house
( x) had feelings for someone who didn't have them back
( ) been arrested
( ) made out with a stranger
( x) gone on a blind date
( x) lied to a friend
( x) had a crush on a teacher           

( ) been to Europe
( ) skipped school
( ) seen someone die
( ) been to Canada
( ) been to Mexico
( x) been on a plane
( ) seen the Rocky Horror Picture Show
( ) thrown up in a bar
( ) purposely set a part of myself on fire
( ) eaten Sushi
( ) been snowboarding
( x) met someone in person from the internet
(x) been moshing at a concert (virtical non-violent moshing for Jesus!)
( ) been in an abusive relationship
( x) taken painkillers
( ) love someone right now       

( x) miss someone right now
( x) laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by
( x) made a snow angel
( x) had a tea party
( x) flown a kite
( x) built a sand castle
( x) gone puddle jumping
( x) played dress up
( x) jumped into a pile of leaves
( x) gone sledding
( x) cheated while playing a game
( x) been lonely
( x) fallen asleep at work
( ) used a fake id
( x) watched the sun set
( ) felt an earthquake
( x) touched a snake
( x) slept beneath the stars
( x) been tickled (story of my life)
( ) been robbed
( x) been misunderstood
( x) won a contest
( x) run a red light
( ) been suspended from school
( ) been in a car accident
( x) had braces
( x) felt like an outcast
( ) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
( x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight 
( x) hated the way you look
(  ) witnessed a crime
( ) pole danced   (for the record, the Cisar's house has a good pole in the basement!!)
( x) squished barefoot through the mud
( x) been lost....hehe
( x) been to the opposite side of the country
( x) swam in the ocean
( x) felt like dying
( x) cried yourself to sleep
( ) played cops and robbers
( ) recently colored with crayons/colored pencils/markers
( x) sung karaoke
( x) paid for a meal with only coins
( x) done something you told yourself you wouldn't
( ) made prank phone calls when you were younger
( x) laughed until some kind of beverage came out of your nose
( x) caught a snowflake on your tongue
( x) danced in the rain
( x) written a letter to Santa Claus
( ) been kissed under the mistletoe 
( x) watched the sun rise with someone you care about
( x) blown bubbles
( ) made a bonfire on the beach
(  ) crashed a party
( x) gone rollerskatin
( x) had a wish come true
(  ) humped a monkey
( ) worn pearls
(  ) jumped off a bridge
( x) screamed penis in public
( ) ate dog/cat food
( ) told a complete stranger you loved them
( x) kissed a mirror
( x) sang in the shower
( ) have a little white dress
( x) had a dream that you married someone
( x) glued your hand to something
(  ) got your tongue stuck to a flag pole
(  ) kissed a fish
( x) worn the opposite sex's clothes
(  ) been a cheerleader
( x) sat on a roof top
( x) screamed at the top of your lungs
( ) done a one-handed cartwheel
( ) talked on the phone for more than 6 hours
( x) stayed up all night
( ) didn't take a shower for a week
( ) picked and ate an apple right off the tree
( x) climbed a tree
(  ) had a tree house
( x) are scared to watch scary movies
( x) believe in ghosts....the Holy one
( x) have more than 30 pairs of shoes
( x) worn a really ugly outfit to school just to see what others say
(  ) gone streaking
(  ) played ding-dong-ditch
(  ) played chicken
( ) pushed into a pool/lake with all your clothes on
(  x) been told you're pretty by a complete stranger
( ) broken a bone
( x) been easily amused
( ) caught a fish then ate it

this one's for you, roomie ya freakin' gramar nazi

Math is Hard
Best Math Joke Ever

Little Tommy was doing very badly in math. His parents had tried 
everything; tutors, flash cards, special learning centers, in short, 
everything they could think of. Finally in a last ditch effort,they 
took Tommy down & enrolled him in the local Catholic school.

After the first day, little Tommy comes home with a very serious look 
and heads straight to his room. He doesn't kiss his mother hello. 
Instead, he goes straight to his room & starts studying. Books & papers 
are spread out and little Tommy is hard at work. His mother is amazed. 
She calls him down to dinner and to her shock, the minute he is done he 
marches back to his room without a word and in no time he is back 
hitting the books as hard as before.

This goes on for sometime, day after day while the mother tries to 
understand what made all the difference. Finally, little Tommy brings 
home his report card. He quietly lays it on the table and goes up to 
his room and hits the books. With great trepidation, his Mom looks at 
it and to her surprise, little Tommy got an A in math. She can no 
longer hold her curiosity. She goes to his room and says: "Son, what 
was it? Was it the nuns?"

Little Tommy looks at her and shakes his head.

"Well then," she replies, "was it the books, the discipline, the 
structure, the uniforms? WHAT was it?"

Little Tommy looks at her and says, "Well, on the first day of school 
when I saw that guy nailed to the plus sign, I knew they weren't 
fooling around."

today was amazing.  not only was it the day that the Jesus rose from the dead (way sweet) but it was just really nice.  i got a new easter outfit yesterday (yeah, only six-year olds get easter outfits but what can a say)  and it was half off.  and i was really excited about that in iteself, BUT THEN when i wore it to church today, i got asked three seperate times if i lost weight!! so needless to say three very lucky people got pretty sweet hugs!  so happy stinkin' easter